Wednesday, April 06, 2005

I don’t know why I had these dreams. I have never felt like this before. I felt no pain, no fear, no doubt about what I had to do next. I was smiling in the face of inevitability.

Over-whelming.... - I was driving my bike on the road well into the night. There were vehicles coming from the other side, and I was getting blinded by their headlights. There was an urgency in me that kept me back from slowing down. I don’t know what it was, but in my dream it was so obvious that there was no need to think of the problem. I could hardly see any one who seemed to be crossing the road in front of me. I had a helmet on, and the visor kept coming down. Suddenly, as I lifted the visor one more time, I found that my visibility was getting hampered by the helmet, whose open front part seemed to be closing in. With every passing second, I found that I was seeing less and less of the road, and still I had to keep going, as if knowing that there was no meaning of my existence if I slowed down or stopped now; as if it didn’t matter anymore what risk I took to get where I intended to. I just had to keep going. It must have been a few seconds of driving, when this huge thing came right in front of me, all of a sudden……….

This one was too much!!! - I could not see anyone on the beach, though I knew they were there. The waves were getting wilder by the moment. There was someone else with me. Someone whom I knew better than myself, and who would never leave me for anything, and whom I would never leave for anything (like the mother, who would never leave her child, or like the son who stays by his mother, come what may). It was so obvious that I didn’t even care to realize who it was. I was only happy that we were together again, at last.

The first big wave came right up front. There was a brick wall, behind which we were sitting. It hit the wall, and water splashed all around us, but we didn’t seem to be getting wet.

Then suddenly I realized that she was actually chained to something; albeit for some safety reason, which was equally implicit, but chained all the same. And then I was climbing down an underground structure, which seemed to be made of some kind of white metal to release her(I don't know who dug the hole for me to climb down). I found the member which had been put in place by one of the respected elders before(?!!!). It had mattered then, as it had been life saving. But now it needed to be removed. I released the ring on the end of the chain (the chain looked like the one we use to lock our luggage in the train, with rings on both ends). As she pulled, the ring got caught between two members of the structure. She pulled it out with a calm that I have never seen or felt before. I got out and as we moved away from the brick wall, the next wave broke right through, to exactly where we were sitting moments before. We silently congratulated each other for anticipating this. It was then that the final blow was dealt. Another wave came from the east, this one, bigger than anything anyone has ever seen; taller than a hundred buildings put together, bigger than any tsunami; an enormous wall, just like in the movies. A round structure broke off from its foundation and started rolling along with the wave, directly towards our group. I wasn’t feeling anything; fear, panic, nothing. Apparently, neither was she. We started walking towards the oncoming wave……..