I plan to shift to another house in about a fortnight. And I plan to stay alone. I believe that by staying alone, I will keep up the drive to work towards my goal single mindedly. I have sometimes.....no; most of the times felt that the attitude around me has kept me from pushing forward with an open heart. I would say that I am more afraid of failure itself, rather than what it would mean if I failed. I intend to purge this one fear from my system. And the first step to this, as I see, is to be away from any negative elements. Elements that keep that fear in me; elements that don't allow me to think rationally, but force me to look out for ways to slip out of such decisive situations. Failure would mean ridicule; not at my inability to succeed, but at the futile effort put into the process of trying. It would amount to bad decision making on my part; something which is given utmost importance in a world that is glutting with managers at breakneck speed.

Fear. Fear is the key to everything. Get the key, open the doors. There is no one to stop you from anything. I sometimes wonder how I would be without fear, and it gives me immense confidence. Alas, only for a moment. There's usually something or the other that I am not happy about; some trivial thing which makes me ponder and ponder; mostly thinking of what the fellow facing me must be thinking of me. How, in the name of God, does it matter?!! It does not. He doesn't know me, nor is interested. And even if he thinks I am a fool, so what? How does it matter to me? These words come easy, what doesn't come as easy is the attitude. As I write, I am more certain that I shall get over this silly thing once and for all. There will always be locusts and pests ready to pick on you. The key is in not bothering about them; not just showing from the outside that you don't bother, that is, with the idea of discouraging them; but from within. Fear is the key to freedom. Get the key. Open the doors and let the sun brighten up life.