where am i?

I am shocked to hear about the death of my batchmate. I had known him for quite sometime, about 2.5 years. We played volleyball together, many great moments with him. But somehow I lost touch with him after college. Now suddenly, its like I have been violently woken up from a deep slumber. An acquaintance has passed away. I took for granted, that we are all going to live, and get old. I conveniently forgot all about him. Now all those moments come back, no more distant, forgotten memories.

I am not exactly sad, but something inside has been, sort of, damaged, or you could say cracked. And now its tugging at my heart, like a dull headache. You feel it, though it doesn't hurt much. Its there all the time.

My friend drowned in the sea, at Puri. I sometimes wonder, what his family is going through, I try to imagine the agony. Its too abysmal. I haven't known him well enough to cry over it, but I definitely cannot ignore it. Now I am somewhere in-between. Where?

RIP.